A disconnect

I feel so disconnected with my mom's side of the family these days.  My mom has been gone for almost 3 years now....and I love my cousins (I always interchange between calling them my aunts and uncles even though they are my first cousins).  They're years older than me, but a lot of them have always been gracious towards my brother and I.  I know I'm not in SD anymore.  But even when I was living there, it felt like after my mom and dad died, there was a huge disconnect.  It makes me sad because I don't really know how to interact with them.  There's always Facebook, but sometimes that just feels so fake.  I know that it's not that they don't care.  When we are all together, I can always feel the love that they have for me.  The way they speak to me is always genuine, and it feels nice.  I guess the problem is that these moments are few and far between.  It's also a little..."unsettling," I think may be the word I'm looking for.  I hope that as we get older, the gap in communication doesn't widen.  They're my only connection here in the US that I can relate to my mom. 

Some of my mom's side of the family.  My mom is on the very left of this picture.